Mum on a Mission

This new mum is on a mission…to lose weight, to be the best mum I can, to be creative and to be the best version of "ME" I can.

Why can’t I do this?

March2

I feel like I’m failing one of my biggest missions; to lose weight. I just don’t understand why I can’t do it. I have a good week and then when I don’t see the results I’m expecting I do what I guess would be described as bingeing. Does this mean I have an eating disorder?

For example, today I had a sneaky weigh in. In hindsight I shouldn’t have, but there you go. Instead of seeing a loss of even 100 grams I find myself looking at a gain of almost 2kg… WTH??? How the hell did that happen? Yes we had Noodle Canteen last night but surely that wouldn’t be the cause would it?

I know we shouldn’t have had Noodle Canteen. We were supposed to have Chicken enchiladas, much healthier but due to my sister, who’s night it was to cook, going out. DH looking after bubs and doing the milk, shower, bed routine and me not getting home from work until 8.15pm it ended up being to late to cook. Or was it? We didn’t end up eating until after 9pm anyway I’m sure I could have made the enchiladas in a similar time frame. Laziness was really the word of the night.

So anyway what do I do today? I make a special trip down the road to get McD’s for lunch. And not just a regular combo, noooo, I get a Mac’n’Cheese – a Big Mac, Medium Fries, Medium Coke, a Cheeseburger AND a Chocolate Sundae. See I told you it was a binge. I feel terrible and what a bad example I am setting for DS, yeah sure he doesn’t understand what happened but I need to stop that from happening before he is at an age to understand that Mummy bought a lot of food for lunch. What a pig.

I’m feeling very down on myself because of the whole ordeal now, so it didn’t make me feel happy did it? Quite the reverse actually!

I don’t want to be a fat mum or a fat wife or the big sister, I’ve said this before. So why can’t I keep it up? Why can’t I stick to a plan?

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“Why can’t I do this?”

  1. kooky40 March 8th, 2011 at 9:44 pm      Reply kristina Says:

    That’s the thing about weightloss… sometimes it does go a bit backwards – BUT, the good thing is that it might be muscle, so gaining weight can sometimes be a good thing! And you can’t not be human (read: no Noodle Canteen) – life can’t be just green salads and water, you need treats to help keep motivated. And sometimes to keep the sanity you do need to binge eat, so do it, get it out of your system and then get right back on the wagon.

    I got quite unmotivated for a while… eating well but having a sneaky chocolate bar for no reason and so on – but I have made (yet another) weekly plan, with lots of swimming and not so much Zumba any more, but I am going to stick to it and I am going to see results. Even 100 grams a week counts. It all adds up.

    So, yeah, don’t get disheartened – chin up, find something you love to do – and do it! I really enjoy swimming, it is low impact and once you’re in the water no one can see you :-) And the results are good – it’s cardio AND resistance at the same time, so it’s double the impact. Could you take your son down to the local pools and even just move together in the water?
    • thenewderricks March 8th, 2011 at 10:12 pm      Reply Cheryl Says:

      Hi Kristina :) I like going on walks with bubs in the buggy so I’m going to aim to continue walking in the mornings. Dusting off the Wii Fit would probably help a little bit too. I’m going to aim on small improvements to get me back on track and then hopefully seeing some losses on the scales will motivate me to keep it up. Fingers crossed…thanks for reading :)
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Hi, I’m Cheryl and this blog is all about my missions in life.

Number 1 is to be the best mum I can to my little boy who was born in May 2010. My next priority is to lose weight which is what prompted me to start this blog in the first place. It’s  going to be a place for me to share with you on this journey. I love to be creative so will also be sharing my flashes of creativity in all things artsy and craftsy.

I’m not perfect so I will endeavour to be as honest as possible in my posts especially when it comes to any failures I will most likely have in my weight loss mission and in my new job as a Mum. The most important thing I need to remember is when I fall off the wagon that I get right back on again.