Soo I’m feeling pretty happy with myself

At the official weigh in at the gym on Saturday I was down 2.2kg from the first weigh in. Body fat percentage has started to move down too from 40.2% to 39.5%.

And what’s even better is that it’s been so easy. I know that’s the last thing anyone reading this wants to see but really it has been. In the past 2 weeks we’ve had all sorts of “off plan” foods thanks to birthday celebrations. I haven’t really felt like I’m missing out on anything although I must admit just lately I have been missing lovely sauces that we used to cook our chicken in, like butter chicken mmmm, yeah I’ve missed that even though the stir frys have had a fair amount of flavour to them. One in particular, mustard chicken, was very yummy!

Anyway, it really has been as simple as reducing the amount of calories consumed and increasing exercise. I haven’t been sweating it out for hours at the gym or starving myself. I’ve been eating plenty and exercising for 40 – 60 mins 3 times a week.

I have found myself getting a bit “loose” with my portion control though so I need to work on that before the scales start tipping in the opposite direction.

Anyway, I am super happy with how I’ve gone so far. May the scales continue to fall for all of us

xx

13 weeks from now I aim to be 15kg lighter. How am I going to do this? I’ve paid almost $800, well part of it is a birthday present, and I’ve joined the Configure Express 13 week “Break” programme. This includes meal plans, 2 personal trainer sessions a week and support. Mum is doing the same thing and we both had our first day today (another post on that coming)

Starting weight – 88.2kg (the gym scales weigh heavier than my ones at home )

Starting Measurements – these will be different to what my PT took today but I’ll do them tomorrow morning.

Before photos…Ugh these are so hideous! I was so shocked when I downloaded these from the camera. Especially on how fat my neck/chin area is! And my tummy well yes, part of that is from having a baby but I still had a biggish tummy before him anyway so I can’t use that as an excuse.

I’ve always hated my legs and one of my biggest goals is to lose enough off my calves and ankles so I can buy knee high boots that aren’t the slouchy kind.

So there we are at BEFORE and so begins the journey to AFTER.

On Thursday 26th May my baby boy turned ONE! I can’t believe I have had this wonderful little guy in my life for a year. I loved him from the moment we found out I was pregnant and that love has grown each and every day. I love watching him growing and learning all about the world around him.  Love you my little man!

We had a big party for him yesterday and it all came together really well. the cake looked awesome, it wasn’t perfect but I am damn proud of myself for how it turned out seeing as it was a pretty big challenge for a newbie cake decorator but I did it!

However…there was a party…. There was and still is party food…. That I’ve been eating… Not good.

I really really REALLY need to get my bum moving and get out for walks and do some skipping. Even eating the healthiest of food isn’t going to help burn off what I’ve already eaten is it?

Watch this space for updates

After son & hubby were fed and watered this morning I threw on my walking shoes, grabbed my ipod and headed out the door.
My aim was for a 30 min walk which I did including 2 mins of stretching at the park.

Distance covered 2.18km (according to www.mapmyrun.com) in 30 mins.

I got back and felt really good! I had had some “me time” and found I was able to cope with things a lot better. I am definitely going to try and fit more of these in while DH is off work. Got to find a silver lining somewhere right?!

Weigh in tomorrow I’m not expecting a huge loss but at least 100g would be nice!

For a long time I’ve ridiculed the whole BMI thing but it’s time for me to get real. This is what doctors use to “classify” you isn’t it so to the medical profession I am obese. Seriously, I hate that word but the medical implications are pretty serious and scary.

The higher your BMI, the higher your risk for certain diseases such as heart disease, high blood pressure, type 2 diabetes, gallstones, breathing problems, and certain cancers. My mother’s side of the family has a history of high blood pressure which I think means I am at risk of that too which my current weight definately doesn’t help. I need to get this sorted!

I am 157cm short (well, I can’t really say “tall” can I LOL) and currently weigh  88.6kgs (as of last week) this makes my BMI 35.9 and way into the obese category. To get into the normal weight category for my height I need to weigh a minimum of 61.4kg which means I need to lose *deep breath* 27.2kg. Yep, a crap load and that’s to sit at the higher end of the normal weight scale too!

So with losing a healthy and sustainable amount per week of .5 – 1kg this weight loss mission should take me 6 months to a year. There is just over 6 months until Christmas but I’m going to make February 27th 2012 my target date to lose the weight. That is the date of our 3rd wedding anniversary and gives me about 41 weeks to achieve it. This gives me room for good weeks and bad weeks, not that I want to have that many bad weeks but I have to be realistic. So 41 weeks / 27.2 kgs = 0.66 kgs a week. That seems realistic doesn’t it?

I’m working on a motivational tool to help me stay focused which I will share with you soon. My reward, apart from a healthier lifestyle and body, will be a pair of sexy knee high boots just in time for autumn. I can’t wait!!!

When you’re going through hell, keep going – Winston Churchill

I wouldn’t describe my life at the moment as hell exactly but I’m feeling the strain. With hubby off work injured and not really able to help with DS a whole lot has fallen onto my shoulders. Being a SAHM my days were all about DS anyway but I got my breaks and down time when he went down for his naps. With DH at home however I don’t get that break because I need to do stuff for him when I would usually be enjoying some peace and quiet plus we’ve been running from appointment to appointment to try and find out what he’s actually done to himself.

Add in the stress about money not coming in from the primary breadwinner and a flatmate (my sister) who does bugger all around the house and the end result is where I am at the moment; standing on the edge trying not to fall over.

I managed to fit a walk into today’s busy schedule, while DH was at the sports physician I headed down the road to the Botanic Gardens and managed to fit in a quick walk around with DS in the buggy. I also had some incidental exercise in the form of the grocery shopping and walking around the corner to work this afternoon and then of course home again once I had finished.

Eating wise; Breakfast was poached egg on a piece of toast. Lunch was a Satay Chicken filled roll from the bakery (not the best choice but all they had left) and 1/2 an apple doughnut (not so good). Dinner – 2 x Mince Burritos with lettuce, cheese & carrot with a smallish piece of chocolate (DS’s Easter egg which I’m slowly finishing).

I’m feeling alright with what I’ve eaten today, I could have ended up picking at a lot more like I sometimes have the tendancy to do but do to being so busy today I didn’t have the oppurtunity thank goodness.

Right well that’s enough from me for tonight, I’m off to read a bit more some weight loss blogs on the WW site and then off to bed.

Catch you later

Current weight 88.6kg. Fail. Big time  *sigh*

Gain of 900g in 2 weeks…and still I’m going backwards!

I do know why though, no exercise, all the chocolate over easter. All I can hope for is a loss this time next week.

I’m working on improving my eating particularly snacking and picking at DS’s leftovers, I have improved my water intake to 1.25L a day so lets hope it works! Increasing aka actually doing exercise will help a lot I’m sure.

"Failure is the opportunity to begin again more intelligently"
- Henry Ford

It’s only something little but I’ve realised I need to pat myself on the back in cases like this so this is me doing just that.

Hubby says to me a little while ago (while lying on the couch with his injured foot elevated) ” I think it could be nice for us to have some cake and ice-cream now” and what do I say? ” Yep okay I can get you some cake and ice-cream” and so I did just that…just got him a bowl of cake and ice-cream and limited myself to a tiny piece of cake and about a teaspoon of ice-cream as I was dishing his up. I was actually able to leave it at just that! yay for me!

I didn’t give in like I usually do and have some because he was, nor did I succumb to the “it will be better once it’s gone so I might as well have some” thought. I’ve done that so often in the past after DH has done something like buy ice-cream as a treat, I start thinking once the ice-cream is finished then I’ll start again….and I never do, it just becomes a never-ending downward spiral.

While today hasn’t been the best eating wise I did limit myself a lot better than I have other days. I’ll get there eventually, baby steps…baby steps.

I have also been good with my water intake. Both yesterday and today I have managed to finish a 1.25L  bottle of water which is a huge achievement for me.

I am going to weigh in tomorrow morning and I have no expectations but hopefully, hopefully I won’t have too much of a gain if it is a gain. Either way I have to stay strong and keep in mind why I’m doing this..this is for myself so I am the best version of me I can be. This is for me and it is for my son.

I’ll let you know how I get on with weigh in tomorrow evening.

Ta ta for now

P.S Hi Rachel!! Thanks for commenting Good luck with the Dukan Diet I’ll be reading with interest and cheering you on

I’ve been reading a blog on the weight watchers site tonight and I came across a comment someone left on this person’s blog. It was in response to this quote the the blogger used (which I think may be a WW quote?)

“Losing weight is hard… but being overweight is harder… choose your hard”

And this is the comment that was left;

“it is hard work .. and its so true .. I’ve been carrying this fat body around for WAY TOO LONG now and that has been even harder …. especially hard when you sit on the side line instead of running and playing with your kids … you have no photos of your self with your children and realise they are growing up and you have no photo memories with me in them … that’s hard !”

This is me. It wasn’t me, but it IS me. That could have been me talking about my life. I am in hardly any photos with my son and he is almost 1 year old! What do I have to show that I was even part of my son’s life this past year? Sweet F all that’s what. It’s not good, it’s far from it actually and it’s damn right sad and terribly terribly upsetting.

With photos such an important way of documenting a child growing up, where in that documentation am I? Hiding behind the camera because I’m too fat to be in front of it that’s where. And it’s not bloody good enough. I want to be like the other mothers that have lots of photos of them with their children.

I want to be someone my son can be proud of, I don’t want him to be embarrassed of his fat mum. I don’t want to be the fat mum, I want to be it and healthy mum who can run around and play soccer with him and his friends all afternoon. I want to be the mum on the field playing soccer myself while my son and husband cheer me on from the sideline.

I don’t want to be this person anymore. I don’t want to look in the mirror everyday and hate what I see, trying to find something that I like about myself. Trying to convince myself that I don’t look that bad. Because I do. I do look bad, I am overweight, obese for my height. I’m only 157cm tall for heaven’s sake, my body isn’t built to carry around this much weight. I need to do something about it and I need to do it soon.

DS is turning 1 in 22 days and I want to be able to look back on the photos of his birthday and know that I was on my way to becoming a mum he can be proud of.

This is it, this is my motivation. My son. This is who I am doing it for. To be fit and healthy, to be a good example for him and to ensure that I am around for as long as I can be.

There is ice-cream in the freezer and it is calling my name. I’m trying with all my will power to resist getting up and serving myself up some ice-cream.

Distraction is supposed to work right? I’ve been reading my inspirational quotes and other weight loss blogs and it’s working…so far. Can I make it to the end of Off the Map without giving in. I hope so.

Life is a bit stressful at the moment which isn’t helping matters but I know stress can’t be an excuse to eat badly.  Why are things not great at the moment…

1. DH is on crutches thanks to a sporting injury from the weekend and can’t do much let alone help out with DS
2. I’m waiting to hear back from my boss about returning to work but in a part-time capacity. I’m thinking the outcome won’t be what I want it to be which means I’m left with the option of resigning or going back to work full-time.

You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it – Margaret Thatcher

I’m going to continuing fighting this battle, to lose this weight that is holding me back rom living my life to the fullest, and I’m going to win it. There will be some a lot of tough times but I am determined to achieve this no matter how long it takes.