I’m watching the royal wedding…are you?

Kate looks absolutely stunning! Every inch a princess even though it seems that officially she won’t be known as Princess Catherine.

Congratulations to the Duke & Duchess of Cambridge.

In other, less exciting news I gave myself a pass from weighing in this morning due to..ahem..lady reasons wink wink. Why make myself feel even worse when I know I always weigh more.

So that’s it from me for today, I’m going back to watching the wedding coverage

I will start by saying things haven’t been helped by this long weekend that has been Easter..not at all!

How was your Easter weekend? What did you do?

We did a garden overhaul on Good Friday and Easter Sunday, Saturday we went to brunch in the city at Shaky Isles, Sunday night we went to Miranda Hot Pools, which after gardening that morning was heaven on tired muscles – I slept well last night! Today the plan was to go to Franklin Zoo but the weather was just too crappy so we’ve had a lovely lazy day, only interrupted by a necessary trip to the supermarket.

Weigh in on Good Friday put me up 100 grams. So in the last 2 weeks I have put on 300 grams, I going in the opposite direction for Pete’s sake! I know it’s all my own doing, there is no-one else to blame.

I did some skipping last week – didn’t even last 5 minutes! That’s something I’m going to work on increasing. Do 5 mins, 10, 15 etc. It was a good workout but definitely highlighted how unfit I am that’s for sure.

I should have worn my pedometer when we were walking around the city on Saturday we were there from about 9 until just before 2 and a fair chunk of that time was walking and looking around. There was also a lot of gardening happening on Good Friday and yesterday so surely that killed some calories too.

Of course none of it will count seeing as I’ve eaten so much chocolate.

Getting back on the wagon again tomorrow…promise!

I’ve been missing in action from here purely from a lack of motivation to do anything! I think I may be getting to the stage where the groundhog day-ish-ness (yes I know that’s not a word) is getting to me. I love being at home with DS don’t get me wrong but I feel like I can’t do anything because my attention should be on him instead of painting/gardening/tidying. When he’s asleep I should be fine but 1. I want to sit and enjoy the peace & quiet and 2. I don’t want to make too much noise in case I wake him up.

Anyway, the reason I’ve come back on is I’m starting weight loss attempt number 1 million, seven hundred thousand….you get the picture. I’ve been trying to work out why I don’t have the motivation to stick to my good eating plan, I know I need to lose the weight for health reasons not just to improve my appearance. I wanted to lose weight for DS’s first birthday so I wouldn’t look like a fat slob in the photos. Doesn’t look like that’s going to happen huh.

However, while I may not get to the weight i originally wanted to be at I am going to do my damnedest to lose as much as I can as that will still be an improvement on what I am today.

I can’t believe I originally got down to 82 point something and then went back up to 88! How and why did I let that happen? Is it because I’m at home all day so essentially I’m hiding from the world so it doesn’t matter what I look like? Maybe.

I should have taken more advantage of the good weather to get out there and do more walks.

Shoulda, woulda, coulda….

Check out my weight loss page for my current stats and stay tuned for updates which I plan to do on a Friday night for weigh in and Sunday night for reviewing the week of eating and exercising.

Wish me luck!

I said I’d do it and I did, went for walk #3 of the week! Also started keeping a food diary.

Here’s what I ate today…

B – 2 pieces of toast – 1 x marmite, 1 x marmalade, both with olivani. 2 tsp of DS’s breakfast (weetbix with yoghurt & fruit)

S – piece of banana cake. 1 x glass of Diet Coke

L – Shared with Mum so I had – 1/2 chicken, cranberry, brie & avocado panini, 1/2 apple turnover, 1/2 bottle of Just Juice

S – 1/2 apple, 1 x mandarin. glass of ginger beer

D – 2 x burritos – mince, lettuce, cheese, carrot & lettuce. glass of ginger beer.

I’m still feeling a bit hungry and it’s been over 20 mins since I ate so I might have a banana and a cup of tea for dessert/supper. I also noticed I got very hungry an hour before dinner so my lunch and afternoon snack didn’t fill me up enough to tide me over. I’ll need to work on having more filling lunches AND a big one – drink more water!

I’m feeling good

C xx

While my eating hasn’t been the greatest, the banana cake I baked yesterday has been calling my name, I have been on 2 walks both 2-3km long.

I should confess that I have indulged in some of the aforementioned cake, however when in a moment of weakness I reached for it to have for breakfast ( I know, shock horror), I am quite proud to say I resisted. Instead I had nothing, the better choice by a slim margin but by no means ideal. After all, breakfast is the most important meal of the day, isn’t it?

I think I need to go back to writing down everything I’m eating. I really need to start tracking my points again but I’ll start with keeping a food diary to start with to get back in the habit of writing everything down and then start working out the points.

Have you noticed it’s getting colder over night? Brrr, winter is definitely on its way which isn’t going to help the whole exercise thing so I’ve got to get as much as I can in while the sun is still shining.

Updates on my other missions;

Organised Home – I was doing so well with keeping on top of the washing and dishes daily and then we had a manic weekend which threw everything out of whack so I’m back to square one. I did manage to do a deep clean and de-clutter of a corner of the lounge, that made me feel like I had accomplished something I cleared out the bookshelf, dusted and re-arranged, putting a stack of books into my “To Donate” pile. I threw out some rattan decorative balls that were old, faded and dusty and just really needed to go. So they’ve gone Some other bits and pieces have been moved to more appropriate homes as well.

Vege Garden – I  weeded the garden, again! This time however I actually dug in some Tui Organic Compost and watered it in. It then sat like that for about a week before I got out there again but then I (finally) transplanted my lettuce seedlings along with a rhubarb plant that I had been given at Christmas.

That’s it from me for today.

Keep well

C xx

I feel like I’m failing one of my biggest missions; to lose weight. I just don’t understand why I can’t do it. I have a good week and then when I don’t see the results I’m expecting I do what I guess would be described as bingeing. Does this mean I have an eating disorder?

For example, today I had a sneaky weigh in. In hindsight I shouldn’t have, but there you go. Instead of seeing a loss of even 100 grams I find myself looking at a gain of almost 2kg… WTH??? How the hell did that happen? Yes we had Noodle Canteen last night but surely that wouldn’t be the cause would it?

I know we shouldn’t have had Noodle Canteen. We were supposed to have Chicken enchiladas, much healthier but due to my sister, who’s night it was to cook, going out. DH looking after bubs and doing the milk, shower, bed routine and me not getting home from work until 8.15pm it ended up being to late to cook. Or was it? We didn’t end up eating until after 9pm anyway I’m sure I could have made the enchiladas in a similar time frame. Laziness was really the word of the night.

So anyway what do I do today? I make a special trip down the road to get McD’s for lunch. And not just a regular combo, noooo, I get a Mac’n’Cheese – a Big Mac, Medium Fries, Medium Coke, a Cheeseburger AND a Chocolate Sundae. See I told you it was a binge. I feel terrible and what a bad example I am setting for DS, yeah sure he doesn’t understand what happened but I need to stop that from happening before he is at an age to understand that Mummy bought a lot of food for lunch. What a pig.

I’m feeling very down on myself because of the whole ordeal now, so it didn’t make me feel happy did it? Quite the reverse actually!

I don’t want to be a fat mum or a fat wife or the big sister, I’ve said this before. So why can’t I keep it up? Why can’t I stick to a plan?

Auckland Anniversary day really threw me out so I ended up doing my weekly weigh in this morning instead.

Weight: 86kg

…so I went up 100grams from my sneaky weigh in on Friday morning. Serves me right really. Also shows that being out of a routine in the weekend really affects what and when I eat and that has a negative effect on my weight. Not good.

Weight: 86.5kg

I can’t say I was very surprised I had a shocking week and weekend eating wise. Over the course of the week I had cocktail sausages and 6, yes 6 (!) cream doughnuts and then the weekend before weigh in…

Saturday Food Diary

B – Up n Go Energise and an Apricot Bumper Bar (from the petrol station as I needed petrol on the way to work)

L – Shrimp Cocktail and 6 pieces of deluxe Chicken Teriyaki sushi (not terribly bad but not good either the deluxe version has and extra shot of teriyaki sauce on the top. I didn’t really need both either, should have had one or the other)

D – Chinese takeaways. ( I went down the road to get them and I was starving, I also had to go to the supermarket and while there I bought a huge blueberry muffin with a tonne of icing on top. I only ended up eating half the muffin as I felt sick, the icing was THAT sweet. I also felt disgusted with myself.)

Sunday – Chinese leftovers for lunch, hot dogs for dinner.

I felt totally disgusted with myself. Especially with the muffin thing and the doughnuts. I’ve never been like this before! What is making me turn to this kind of eating?!?!?! I really need to get this under control before I balloon even further.

This week has been a better week and I sneaked a peak at the scales Friday morning and was 85.9kg so I was pretty pleased with that. Hopefully it will be a bit lower again!

Eek! It’s been a while since I’ve posted…oops! So what have I been up to in the meantime?

Mission: Weight Loss – Latest weigh in (Monday) I was at 86.5kg so unfortunately didn’t achieve my first goal I know perfectly well why though. I didn’t exercise, I didn’t drink enough water ( so I’m not going very well with that goal either) and I wasn’t tracking what I ate therefore wasn’t holding myself accountable. We had a bad night sleep-wise with DS on Friday night and DH, thinking he was doing something nice (which he was) bought me some cookies & cream ice-cream. It was very nice of him to try and make me feel better when I was feeling a bit “over it” but ice-cream isn’t a good thing to have in the house when I’m feeling drained and a little bit down. Willpower to resist is just something I need to work on I’m afraid.

Mission: Vege Garden – I have started a kind of garden diary in a hardcover book that I have cut & pasted tips and info from old Your Home & Garden magazines that I was clearing out so that I have all the info in one place. Here are photos of some of the pages…

Garden Diary - General info

Garden Diary - Growing from seed

Garden Diary - Herbs

I have also started a page for sustainable gardening, mulching & composting and the first “what to do in” page for Summer/January. The next step is to actually get of my bum and actually weed the garden so I can plant some goodies!

Mission: Organised Home – Yeah this is going to be a loooong term mission I’m guessing. Things I’ve done towards this so far are buy a new bigger box for the Christmas decorations and pack up DS’s clothes he has grown out of. You’ve gotta love plastic storage bins

Anyway must fly the little one (who started crawling as of Monday!) has awoken from his nap.

Ciao for now x

Weigh in was this morning and the result was…

87.2kg

so a loss of 900g. Not too bad considering there was still (actually there IS still) lots of Christmas goodies left in the house.

I’m pretty happy with this result, hopefully I can keep it up at this sort of pace.